Not What You Think

As the name of the blog implies, I am a juggalette, part of the infamous juggalo family. Now, I know what many people think about us. The FBI even classified us as a gang, which is bullshit. I want to take a few moments of your time to let you know who I am and what I am about.

I listen to Insane Clown Posse, the band that started the whole Dark Carnival belief that us Los and lettes (short for juggalos and juggalettes) follow. A lot of the music is insane, freaky, and fresh. It talks about murder, hatchets, and sick shit. But, to be honest, that's not why I listen to it.

The Dark Carnival is about so much more than murder and general violence. Underneath the wicked shit, is the message that saved my life.

The six albums, known as the Joker Cards, tell a story, a subliminal message. It was a genius move that reached out to the people who were lost and stumbling through life, probably ones that would end up in a lot of trouble.

I was an angry teenager, I will admit. I hated life and I hated people. I had been bullied and picked on for so long, I was near the point where I wanted to commit murder and punish the people who fucked with me. Either that or kill myself. Near my breaking point, I met a juggalo. The first person to not give me shit, bully me, tease me, trample on me. And I got curious.

So, I dug around and found ICP. I started listening to the music which channeled my anger and rage. I listened for hours, days, months, and beyond the twistedness of the music, I found the message. It showed me that I was on the wrong path. I wasn't alone anymore and they would help me find my way back, giving me a way to be me and move beyond the bullying and depression that was my life. It saved me.

The message was that when the end called, where would I be in life? Was I going to end up in heaven or hell? Was I one of the evil people the music talked about punishing? Did I have time to turn my life around?

I sure as hell did!

So, without further ado, I shall introduce you to the Dark Carnival and the Joker Cards in my next post.